I have been trying to decide on a tombstone for my son Christian and what we should write on it. It seems that I grow to love him more each day even though he is not with us here physically. It is hard when I think of what could have been, at night or when it is quiet. Different things trigger my sorrow and yet God is merciful and faithfully brings me back to Him. He is my joy, my hope, and my comfort. I rejoice in the Lord and this song spoke to my heart today. I hope it speaks to yours.
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
A lot has happened since I last posted on this blog, but through this last year God has been ever faithful and true. He has provided for our every need, comforted us through every trial, and embraced us with His amazing love showered with His grace. The joy of the Lord is my strength. Each of us have grown a year older. We have also been blessed with another child. His name is Christian Covenant Kruse. He was a blessing every day He was alive and has continued to be and will always be a blessing since his death on earth and birth into the eternal Kingdom of God on January 28, 2009, three weeks before his due date. Oh, what comfort I have in knowing that Jesus loves the little children and He said, "For of such is the Kingdom of Heaven." I praise God for the beautiful name He gave us for He has taught us that our precious boy is covered under the covenant God has made with us through the saving blood of His beloved Son and that he will be a Christian (a follower of Christ) for all eternity. We look forward with hope and joy unspeakable to be reunited with our son, to feast at the banqueting table of our Lord, and to worship Him in glory for all eternity. We will join our little Christian and be leaping and dancing and praising God with him forever and ever. I praise God for creating Christian and allowing us to be his family the short time he was on the earth. I am forever grateful for how He has used his life to minister to so many on this earth and for answering my deepest prayer...that all our children would be used to advance God's Kingdom on the earth. Each day that goes by since I had to kiss my baby goodbye, I have seen how this little one has done that in so many different ways than I ever knew or understood could be possible. He has directed my eyes and my heart to eternity in a way I never had focused on before. So much in this life that I use to find important or critical have been put into proper perspective. I pray that his little life on earth will not have been in vain. I pray that we will all keep Christ as the center of our lives, that we will appreciate every heartbeat of our loved ones, that we will remember to love those around us, that we will pray for the hurting, reach out to the needs of others, weep with those who weep, rejoice with those who rejoice, and thank God for our blessings. May we treasure God's Word and cling to Him every day of our lives. May we come to know him more with each passing day and long for the day that we will be with Him in paradise. We have nothing to fear. Cast your burdens on the Lord for He cares for you. We have no need to be anxious for His grace is sufficient. It is more than enough and He truly does work all things out for good. I am amazed at how wonderful my natural family, my local church, and all my brothers and sisters in Christ across the country have been to our family through this time. I have felt so much love and I have been filled with so much love from and for all of you. Thank you! Our God reigns and He is greatly to be praised! To read more about our son, Christian Covenant Kruse, click on the blog my daughter Destiny set up for him http://babyusedbygod.blogspot.com. Many people have blessed us with their words, poems, and songs. I pray you will be blessed, comforted, and encouraged as well.